Well this is a bit telling. The fact my last post was April 15 2014… I wasn’t ready, I couldn’t handle it and I struggled until this point. My original dream of being a Lactation Consultant was temporarily set back by the fact I couldn’t see another mum feeding without being upset… Slight problem when that is the whole point of your job! My need to help people in these situations was set back because of my emotions towards these situations.
Being World Breastfeeding Week I wanted to share the ways in which babies are nourished. This meant opening up and being a little brave. I was scared to post this, I certainly didn’t wait people I know seeing it and yet here we are. Maybe its to heal me, maybe it might help you. Either way my blog starts here…
Now Mummas, this one is bitter-sweet for me. I debated whether to post or not. This is not Dash, but my first son L. This was from a darker time. A time surrounded in storm clouds and hiding away.
This photoshoot happened the day after a particularly stressful week long ‘holiday’ away with a group of friends. I didn’t realize at the time of course that this kind of sad and anxious was very NOT ok, not normal, and needed help. It would be a long time (maybe up to a year later!) that I would get the help I so desperately needed. Something I will be forever grateful to Mr Breast Dressed for, even when he is an ass.
I never got my pregnancy shoot, my birthing shoot or my newborn shoot. This was my chance to get the photos I thought would fix everything. Fix me.
While all the photos were absolutely amazing and I will treasure them, this was the one that truly captured my world. L’s whole feeding journey was exhausting but I NEEDED to continue as long as I possibly could, for my sanity so I thought. Or maybe this is part of what took it.
This is my first baby boy, this is my first breastfeeding picture and this is a constant reminder of the power of perseverance… and pure, utter stubbornness! Photo credit Kelly Champion Photography
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